ch eck sh eet

checklist

service project, check: erwin clean-up as well as rmh trips that i helped coordinate

great room gig, check: stop the traffick, and the guitar hero tournament that i helped set up

d2l, goldmail, check: i'm addicted to checking my damn goldmail...

resume, check: in progress

pos, check: constantly being updated

rogaine, check: i need to pull that back out and revise, now that i think of it

blog: not nearly as many as i want to claim, actually.

projects

1. impacting the world

well, i want to do two things next semester. first, i am starting this semester with helping brittany r. set up a relay for life team, the first ever for governor's hall. i'm excted.

next, i'm going to help coordinate at least three fundraisers next semester for fimrc, we're throwing around the idea of fundraising for playground equipmen for the ronald mcdonald house. even if that doesn't stand the fires of winter break, good things are in the future.

2. "why?"

this is so hard. i've just been reading, as i usually do, keeping this topic in mind. i really have no more questions that i intend to follow. i wrestled with religion for years, but now i'm at peace with myself about it. i want to delve into psychology-- i'm reading "40 experiments that changed psychology" right now-- so i'm becoming a psychology major..

3. who am i?

the one time i really connected with this topic was in a series of heated arguments and discussions between myself and a couple of people i love that are very close to me...

turns out that the direction my entire life was(is) going was(is) completely wrong. i was(am) doing things for the wrong, selfish reasons. actually... i am still doing things for the wrong, selfish reasons, and enjoying them, no less.

i prefer to think that the ends justify the means(and the motivations)

4. motivation

well, this ties in too closely with who i am for me to seperate them. my whole life is guided in the right direction using the wrong map.

how..... to fix this? actually, does it need to be fixed? do i need a new map?

this is so crucial to my entire life, but i don't know. i just don't know.