Motivation

"i want to do something that matters"

but just what is that?

i'll take a look at the baser things first, work my way up. why do i want to do psychology? because of the way i talk to people sometimes, like i am a seperate thing from them instead of a continuity of their humanity.
i don't like being a continuity of your humanity. i like being seperate. i'll tell you that you are human, alright. i just won't participate in it.

why do i want to do pre-med? because i can't think of anything to do with a degree in psychology that is as rewarding financially as a doctorate in psychiatry. i'm sorry that i think of money as a motivation, but i already have a big family and want to just increase on that. i want security, and money is security. no, i don't plan on "scraping by" on the salary of a psychiatrist. but the money is a comfort.

there's no telling what a degree in psychology or anything else will get me-- med school, if passed successfully, is a little definate.